My first week of classes at Lourdes has officially come to a close. I'm not entirely sure how I'm feeling about it yet, to be perfectly frank. I'm enjoying having something to do again. I enjoy the campus. It's beautiful here, and the people are almost disconcertingly nice. I'm struggling with my classes though. I'm seriously filled with fear that my chosen path is not for me. The more I think about it, the more fearful that I become, which is obviously in no way helping.
Things are getting a little better here for me on campus though. I'm getting accustomed to the people that I'm surrounding myself with. The girls on my floor--Lexi, Catherine, M Jay, and Melissa--are all pretty cool. There are a few more, but they rarely come out of their rooms. M Jay, Lexi, Catherine and I spent some time last night hanging out and talking about classes and boys since our Internet was down. I'm the only married student in the dorms, I believe, so I'm probably the only one in our group that doesn't have boy drama. I'm also feeling pretty old because the rest of them are rather young. Melissa is the only one that's older than me, and she's only a few months older.
The campus meal plan has its ups and downs. The food is pretty good when you finally have it, especially downstairs with the all-you-can-eat style thing. The problem is that the food area downstairs isn't always open, so I'm stuck with cold sandwiches and fruit cups the rest of the time. The worst is that they stop serving dinner before I'm even out of class three nights in a row. So I'm forced to go, pick up my food, shove it in my bag, sit through class, and tough it out until I have an actual opportunity to eat it, which usually doesn't come until later at night when I'm at home.
Walking to campus has been really different. I'm not used to having to walk to school each day. When JJ and I went to Owens, we drove about an hour there and about an hour back. This is a 25 minute walk there and a 25 minute walk back. I'm learning to enjoy it, but the first few days took some getting used to. This is actually a really lovely area. There are squirrels and birds. It's been cool lately, so that the walk has been mostly pleasant. Last night, on my way home, I almost lamented not bringing a jacket with me.
My weekend is looking interesting. I'm going to try to order pizza on Saturday night I think. And since I'm not sticking around today on campus until dinner, I'm trying to get as much food as I can at lunch. It might make my walk home a little less than pleasant, but it'll give me a chance to spend the rest of the night in the apartment without having to go anywhere. Probably when I get back, I'll collect my purse so that I can go buy a pack of cigarettes at the local pantry. I know that I quit smoking, and I was going strong for like two years, but I've been really stressed out. Living on campus, being away from my family, friends, and husband, and having to face all the drama of being a nursing student is starting to get to me.
Hopefully, this weekend can be filled with studying and little else. Maybe on Saturday, I'll get a chance to actually relax a little bit--sleep in for once! It didn't work for me today. I had a meeting to attend with accessibility services about taking notes for other students in need. Why that would be scheduled for a 10 AM on Friday morning, I have no idea! On the upside, it's over. It got me here for breakfast and lunch, so I can't complain too hard about that.
For now, I'm going to finish my lunch and face the rest of my day. Walking home, studying, and maybe a movie will be in order for my night. I hope we have Internet back by the time I get back to the dorms!
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